Hopefully after I return from my 17 day vacation, life will settle down again. It has been hectic and overwhelming and drama-filled since the end of last summer. I guess I brought it all upon myself but it was mostly just a reaction to the difficult circumstances to try to keep myself happy. It’s unreasonable to expect this summer to be as much fun as last summer, but I hope it comes close. I really miss just being able to chill out at home with a really good friend or two and just enjoy the simple things in life. Most people think I am very introverted, and in many ways I am – I don’t talk a whole lot and I don’t make friends easily. But really, I like social activity more than just about anyone. I just want a few very close friends who I can depend on day in and day out, who are happy to just be there with me without having to do something or talk all the time.
I am afraid that I will be bored after just a couple of days in the Philippines. But maybe it will just be a good opportunity to catch up on some reading and TV shows from this spring that I haven’t gotten to watch but have saved on my computer. It will be good. It will help me get back into a mode of not being so restless and not being so attached to the internet, and I really do need to take this trip. That reminds me that I need to copy pictures and videos over to the laptop I am going to take with me so that my family can see all the cool things and cool people who have helped me become this wonderful man they have been hearing about.
